Perseverance

Perseverance. A force that makes you keep going, even when you struggle to start or continue. It is a gentle breeze, leading you by nose, to the destination you desire. It is a strong gust, pushing against you as you try to move forward, making sure you have to put in 100% to get what you want. It is the ultimate trainer, not listening to excuses, not giving you days off; it expects full focus everyday. It is a stern parent, watching over you every time, critiquing your progress with snide remarks or sighs. It is the gentle foster, that watches you grow along the journey, to find your calling in this dusk filled world we call home. It is the only lesson worth doting, for it does its cause well.

We all have goals in our minds, but the fact is there is so much happening now that it is hard to accomplish goals. This is not to say, oh it’s okay to give up, I’m an image of that. Never give up, you will make it. If no one believes in you, I do. But, it is hard to focus, which makes perseverance even stronger. Perseverance is only strong when it is hard to persevere. If it was easy to do something, you probably didn’t learn much from it. If a writer could just write 100 pages and be done in a week, it wouldn’t be from the heart. If a musician could just sit down with one tune, and make a song in an hour, would it be great? All things we work for come around, and we must all accept the trials that you are faced with on that path. Hardships are part of goals, because we must all fail.

Lately, I’ve been getting closer to perseverance. It was a long off friend once before, lost during my darkness that was high school, not found till now. It was always my weakness, as I have started many things, but given my all to very few. Now, it is scared, timid, around me. It whispers words of encouragement, it gives me my visions of what could happen in that day, it gives me the burning heart that I need to know I’m still breathing, it gives me the friends around me who cheer for me everyday. It is still so weak, so I focus on different things to make it see how fickle I can be, hoping with rejection it will become closer to me, for fear of losing me. It is a twisted path, but my heart has a twisted mind.

For now, I work towards a goal 7 years strong, a goal that many try, most can achieve, but for me has become a mental block that locks my progress. It is nothing major, for most people, it is nothing life changing, it will not bring me a fortune, but it will bring me tears in my drought of emotions, because it is something I have worked towards for years and years. Alongside many enemies, friends, companions; it truly is my path.

So even now, I work towards it; hoping everyone will still love me after my accomplishment breeds new emotions and feelings. I leave you words many have said to me, for many years, and words I wish to wear as my mantra.

“You can do it; do anything. Why? Because, you’re you.”

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